Fatherhood

Off on a sidebar... I posted this without text today... Pretty neat of me huh?

I love being a father. My two little kids are growing so fast. Michael is going to be a little man before I know it, and Gabby is getting more and more beautiful by the day... Where has the time gone?

I think that my biggest concern is that some of the best friends I have ever had are missing them growing up. I am wondering though, which is more important? Having my family see my kids grow up, or having my good friends miss them growing up. You would think with technology the way it is that it would be possible for both to watch them grow up...

I am just wondering though... How much do you share via technology to allow your friends the opportunity to watch your kids grow? My daddy instinct says as little as necessary... My pride says share everything because nothing will happen to you.... Dilemmas... if this is the worst one I face for the next week I really am sitting pretty...

Prayers...

Pisio

I Love It!

And by it, I mean my new job. It is awesome. I am using my head and the skills that I learned from the military to build something that is actually being used. I guess after the treatment I received at my last two jobs I have forgotten what it was like to be treated like a human with skills and talents that should be used. I had gotten so tired of fighting for others and myself, I did not notice I was being treated like garbage. Man do I know the difference now.

This new company actually appreciates me. They are letting me think and create a little bit. I am able to make their products more maintenance friendly, and aesthetically pleasing to the eye. The engineers are not offended or upset when I do this, they actually appreciate it, especially if things work when I am done altering them. So far so good as far as that goes.

I am loving life again. There for a while I was feeling like I was doomed to be in the retail run around for the rest of my life. This company took a chance on me, and so far all parties involved are happy that they did. Now I just need to get back to school. Jonah and I are getting some debt we acquired while I was a cartpusher paid off, and then I will resume my degree pursuits. I am leaning towards Thomas Edison State College. They are a distance education college out of New Jersey, and they offer a lot of good programs. Any number of them I could complete very quickly...

I LOVE MY NEW LIFE!

Prayers,

Pisio

Criminal Minds

I tried to convince my wife that this was a good show, but she would not believe me. Then there was an episode that changed her mind. Now she is addicted to it like a bad drug or something, and I am her pusher... HEHEHEHE... I guess husbands can be bad influences after all.

I really am not sure what it is about the show that I like so much, but I do know that I like it too. I like the way that they profile behavior and are able to paint a picture of what a criminal is like. It is like a behavior puzzle that they are able to solve... sometimes they have the box to look at, but most times there is some kind of twist... like an unexpected assistant, or two killers in one person's body.

It is a nice escape from reality I guess. I think that you have to turn your mind off for a little bit each day, and Criminal Minds allows me that escape.

Prayers,

Pisio

AARGH

My little girl is driving me nuts... I think I know why a lot of male mammals eat their children... I know that I need to be patient and loving with her, but she is such a little chimp some days... Most days...

Today, she spent the entire day crying. Tylenol... No work. Noni's house... No work... Sleep... No work... Food... No Work... Momma... No work... Finally tonight at about 9:00 she went into her crib with no complaint... Peace and quiet...

Surprisingly her brother went down at about the same time with little or no struggle...

Long day... peaceful night...

Prayers,

Pisio

Okay...

So at one point this was a PR 3 blog, but I went so long without posting that I lost my PR... Argh... wonder how I can get it back? I have more time right now. I am taking a break from school... AGAIN... and I have more time since my new job is 9am - 6pm Monday through Friday. My wife likes to blog at night, and since we have Netflix now she watches movies and T.V. shows while she blogs. We do have a lot of cuddle time on the couch, but she does spend a lot of time with her computer. Maybe later this year I can get her a new one...

If any of you readers and followers are still out there, let me know where you would like me to take this blog... It will still be a personal diary of sorts... for the most part again. I have some other ideas about themes and things, but the snail still fits...

Prayers,

Pisio

WOW!

I can not believe how long it has been since I last posted... I did not realize that being a father of two could take so much out of you. I hope that I can get back to posting more often, but I can not promise anything. I also need to update the layout and things. Hmm... Well perhaps later this week I post something of substance, but I just wanted to let my followers (creepy to even think) that I am still around, and hope to be posting more often again soon. I also intend to lighten up the mood of this place. More humor, less doom and gloom... I hope anyway.

Prayers,

Pisio

Pappa Bear

Watching waiting wondering.
Are you there? Do you look down on me with pride, or disgust.
I am not the man we planned on me being, and yet I am a shadow of him.
There is still hope for me, that I can become half the man and father that you were, that you still are...

Two kids now, a wife and a mortgage...
I push carts pappa bear. I push carts.

I watch the sprinklers now, more and more.
Wondering when it will be the last day I can.
It is only a matter of time. I am still reeling from that day.
You left so suddenly, but we all knew how you felt.
You loved us, you still do.

No degree, still struggling...
I push carts pappa bear. I push carts.

Mikey makes me laugh; a complete joy.
You would have loved his so, but you left too soon.
I know you can see him down here, running in the sprinklers.
He knows you, mom has made sure of that. Pappi.
We miss you, more than we knew.

Worried about the future, no reserves left.
I push carts pappa bear. I push carts.

So much on my mind; I do not sleep at night.
I wonder lost through the day.
I miss you and your guidance; your love.
Now you love us in ways we can't see or feel.
Little consolation; yet you do.

I push carts pappa bear. I push carts.